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Three years since the outbreak and John Watson still doesn't know what to make of it. Like all doctors, he'd heeded the call of city and country as England did what all smart island nations did the moment the moment WHO released a statement that the virus had spread outside of America through international travel. It shut down completely. He'd not paid attention to the politics of it, hadn't bothered so much with the news. John had his work to do, people to treat, safety and quarantine to enforce. His world because St. Barts'.
At first, isolation seemed to work. Patriots were forced to stay outside of the relative safety of Great Britain as the airports and the Eurostar stations shut down. Ferries between the islands were discontinued.
The problem was that no one could isolate whatever it was causing humanity to change. The virus didn't seem to kill the host's brain, just every other part of their systems. A day post infection, the victim would become feverish. Two days later, they'd succumb. And after that...nothing short of dismemberment could stop them. It wasn't airbourne. And not in the blood either. Just the saliva. John had never seen anything like it. The internet called it a zombie plague, but that wasn't quite right either.
It took six months for everyone worldwide to realize that quarantine wouldn't help. Infections sprouted up for no discernible reason. People turned in the Underground, in shopping centres, on the playground. London, and the country, didn't stand a chance. The government fell overnight. Society followed.
And John just stayed on at St Barts'. He stopped trying to do the most good. And just attempted to survive.
It's not easy, even for an ex-soldier. There's no heading down to Tesco's any more. Ammo is impossible to come by. But if John, and the others holed up in St. Barts' still want to eat, someone has to go out. And that someone is almost always John.
At first, isolation seemed to work. Patriots were forced to stay outside of the relative safety of Great Britain as the airports and the Eurostar stations shut down. Ferries between the islands were discontinued.
The problem was that no one could isolate whatever it was causing humanity to change. The virus didn't seem to kill the host's brain, just every other part of their systems. A day post infection, the victim would become feverish. Two days later, they'd succumb. And after that...nothing short of dismemberment could stop them. It wasn't airbourne. And not in the blood either. Just the saliva. John had never seen anything like it. The internet called it a zombie plague, but that wasn't quite right either.
It took six months for everyone worldwide to realize that quarantine wouldn't help. Infections sprouted up for no discernible reason. People turned in the Underground, in shopping centres, on the playground. London, and the country, didn't stand a chance. The government fell overnight. Society followed.
And John just stayed on at St Barts'. He stopped trying to do the most good. And just attempted to survive.
It's not easy, even for an ex-soldier. There's no heading down to Tesco's any more. Ammo is impossible to come by. But if John, and the others holed up in St. Barts' still want to eat, someone has to go out. And that someone is almost always John.
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But, that's not really the point of this conversation. Not anymore. At least not for the moment.
"Objective or subjective. You've always been free to ask me anything," Sherlock tells John. It's true, even if he's got a history of being less than kind whenever he hears the 'stupid questions'. And, at times he's scoffed at things the other man had felt important.
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There's some uncomfortable silences here.
"You told me a very long time ago that you're married to your work, that you've no time for relationships, that you were...what was it? Flattered that I'd shown an interest but--" Flattered he'd shown an interest. Just something for flatmates to say to one another?
Get it together!
"You don't necessarily have your work anymore. Right, yes, the cure, that's certainly important and perhaps a case, but--" Do not call him out for babbling again. "I mean to say, have you bothered, these last three years, finding anyone to share time with? Like a girlfriend? A boyfriend?"
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The 'oh' makes it to his lips, but it passes over the larynx complete so it's not audible. With the palpable atmosphere between the two of them, he shouldn't be surprised to hear this question. In fact, he'd expected something along these lines, just not so specific. Not in the way that reminds him of that first meal they 'shared' together. Waiting for killer cabbies and chasing them across London just to prove to John that he's got something in life worth looking for. No need to cater to a depression-induced disability.
"No," Sherlock tells him once John's stopped tripping over his words. That's the short answer. "I haven't had the time or desire for any of that. Up until my last week, my 'work' had been finding my way back home." Read: Finding you.
Boyfriend. Girlfriend. He doesn't have time in his life for that. He's just got one friend and that's all he needs.
"And now, my work is finding a cure for this plague. And, as far as I'm concerned, besides myself there's only one thing in common between all three." Does John need him to be more straight-forward than that?
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He's never wanted to leave Sherlock, not since that horrible text summoning him to Baker Street to find the man with three nicotine patches spread out on the sofa.
He knew it. Knew then. Knew he'd never be the same.
"I'm sure I don't count," John says to himself and it's almost whimsical in it's sadness. "But I'm glad to help you this time. I am always glad to help you and I will always be...here." It's been such an emotionally draining night. This isn't helping.
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"John," Sherlock starts, then stops speaking. His eyebrows furrow together as he looks for words that would come easy to him if he were explaining the difference between diethyl ether and chloroform in the role of a non-polar solvent. Or if he were deducing where a victim had been hours before their death by the layers of soil on the bottoms of their shoes.
He can't move his left arm very well. It hurts and even wiggling his fingers pulls at the biceps and triceps brachii, which just irritates the area surrounding his break. He does it anyway, though. Reaching out to touch John's arm lightly because he doesn't know what he wants to say or how to say it.
"You count, John," he starts again, then frowns. "I guess... what I'm trying to say is that you're part of my work."
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Sherlock is delicate right now, but it feels right to do so and therefore, John embraces the taller man somewhat awkwardly as he half lays, half lounges over him.
"You guess," he says, just by Sherlock's ear, meant to be a happy sort of sound. "You never guess. So yes. All right then. I'm part of your work." The world's gone to shit but at least there's this little beacon of hope out there.
John sets his forehead to Sherlock's. Still smiling, still in his happy place. Perhaps his breath isn't all that fresh but does that really matter?
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But, it's good. John's moving closer and it just feels... good.
"I do sometimes," Sherlock admits about the guessing. Much like he'd guessed with the pills, but he's still adamant about 'not guessing' there. His face is starting to feel too hot again. It's not the fever. Fevers don't come and go depending on how close your friend is.
John is all smiles, but Sherlock isn't. He's enjoying this a lot, but he's also testing the waters in an area he's insecure with. He's got no knowledge of things like relationships and it's hard enough managing a friendship. He'll step on John's toes and they'll fight. It'll be worse than when they were just flatmates. And, then there are certain other aspects of relationships that he's very unfamiliar with in any sense other than forensic. Moriarty had been very right when he'd dubbed him 'The Virgin'.
As far as breath freshness goes? It would matter more if his breath weren't equally effected by sleep.
"You're doing this on purpose, aren't you?"
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Everything ended for him when Sherlock was lost. Everything...including the world. If that hadn't been a sign, no matter how superstitious John Watson simply isn't, he wouldn't know what was. There's nothing left. He'd had no one but Bill and these few people left over that managed to stay smart and stay alive.
And then Sherlock came back. At the low point. All over again.
"I just wanted to be sure that you wouldn't morally object." So yes, he's so very sure now. John's had a great deal of practice with this particular thing and Sherlock will get the benefit of an expert here. A twist of the head to avoid the collision of noses and John presses warm, rough lips from too much tongue wetting against very full, very soft ones.
It sort of makes this whole end of the world scenario worth it.
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There's something else too. The warmth isn't limited to just his cheeks. And after John's admission of 'yeah', Sherlock shifts around under the blanket. Does he want it off? Does he want it on? On seems safer right now, so that's how he'll leave it.
A few times before John finally takes the plunge, Sherlock gives little half attempts to close the distance between their mouths. He second guesses himself, moves back, tries again. It's a pleasant kind of torture he's inflicting on himself. It's more than enough movement and gesturing for John to know exactly what he wants.
"No objections," Sherlock whispers at his friend. He's done enough to work himself up for this over the last couple of minutes to make it better for the wait.
John's lips are slightly rough. A little bit too dry. Sherlock doesn't mind so much, but he instinctively wants to moisten them. Like with any other social protocol, he doesn't take into consideration that the use of a tongue in a kiss means something more than just a dry kiss.
Take this one too!
If Sherlock is noting heat elsewhere, it's probably not just him. John is almost coming apart at the seams. He gently touching Sherlock's cheek, not quite so gently threads through his hair, and pulls back to follow the path Sherlock's tongue had taken over his own lip.
It just lasts for a second, that blinking wonder.
His own name had been said quite a few times and it's about now that he ought to express his own appreciation of the name his best friend had been given. It suits him so well. "Sherlock..." He just wants to check here before there's another kiss to be had.
This one will be with a great deal more tongue, perhaps some teeth, and the solid muscle of John Watson, soldier and doctor and in fantastic shape for his age, pressed firmly against the leaner, lankier form beneath him.
OMG THAT ONE IS CUTE
When John starts to pull away, Sherlock follows after him for a second. Don't stop. But he can't keep up when the tension in his right shoulder reminds him that his muscle is still inflamed from his fight.
He chews on his lip for a moment, watching John. His stare is intense, maybe bordering on predatory as he pays too much attention to John's mouth and not enough attention to his eyes.
Give an addict something that feels good. Is that really such a bright idea, John?
During the short break, Sherlock frees his arm from the pillows, tucking it in the space between John's neck and shoulder so he'll be able to hold his friend still if he tries to sneak away from him before Sherlock's had his fill of this kissing business.
He'll welcome the second kiss and with it all of the new things John throws into it. The passion, the heat, and the physical manifestations of them. Sherlock is a fast learner and while he doesn't have much in terms of experience, he takes note of everything that John does that he finds pleasurable in some way, and then he practices those things right back. He really likes John's tongue against his bottom lip and the way John feels when he shifts their bodies together. Which he's more than eager to demonstrate.
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He supposed, and idly at that, Sherlock's learning curving keeping him busy, that sometimes things might just happen for a reason. A series of chance accidents and wrong turns have led to this moment and, given the heat of it, John is very unsure if he'd change even a single thing in case they never did get here.
John is careful. He is in control. Sherlock might be squirming around like a puppy, but John knows better than to advance forward guard too quickly. Sherlock's interest has been known to fizzle out after an experience. If there's always something more to want, John will always be there to give it.
Yes, the worry is silly at his point but--
Well, it's hard not to just drag his shortened fingernails over Sherlock's ribs. He sticks to his hair and chin and throat for now because, yes Sherlock, kissing your neck is nearly as fantastic as your mouth.
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What's kept him disinterested in sex in general is an unfairly long list of how gross people are mixed with how much time he didn't care to spend on such activities. Sex and romance just aren't as important to someone who finds more pleasure in brain work. But, by God does it feel good.
John might be unhappy in the morning if he asks Sherlock too much about the experience. He cares more about his friend than anything else in the world. More than he ought to, since it's led him to some dangerous decisions. Though he's enjoying this physical outlet for frustrations and the human need for intimacy, he doesn't directly combine it with how he feels toward John. They are separate things, but John's lucky enough to fit in perfectly into each role, since there's no one he trusts more to see him at his most vulnerable than the doctor he's practically writhing against currently.
Who knows. Maybe John will convince him through gentle coaxing (or by throwing him against the wall after any adrenaline fuelled rumble with other survivors or the Infected) that he can link the two.
Sherlock doesn't follow after John when the kiss breaks this time, because his lungs are starving for oxygen. Breathing each other's respired breath is romantic in theory, but difficult to maintain for long periods of time in practice. The way he says John's name when he tilts his head to the side to expose more of that neck for John to work with might sound a bit more like begging than he means for it to. His left foot and knee try to find a way between John's legs.
"God, John. I've never been this aroused in my life," he complains, proving once again that he's a bit different than 'normal'. Although he's a virgin and feels certain apprehension because of lack of experience, he's not shy about it in any way. He's not going to beat around the bush like school girl, because that's now the kind of man he is.
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John had been doing fine, just fine, until that came out of Sherlock's mouth. The older man shudders with desire, scooting his lower body so that he could see for himself if the former detective is exaggerating. He isn't. There are all sorts of things going through John's mind right now. He'd planned on holding on. On behaving. On bringing Sherlock along, little by little--
But God, he wants to be touched. He wants to touch back. He wants to see just what it is they're working with. He wants to make Sherlock moan his name again. That voice--
He swallows thickly and noses his way to Sherlock's collarbone before lightly nibbling on it. The desire to mar the skin, to place his mark upon it, becomes a deafening groan in his ears.
So why not? He indulges. Sherlock's throat is worried into a bright pink hickey. How very secondary school.
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The friction of John's exploratory reaction makes Sherlock shudder. Mildly electric. He really doesn't know what to expect. He's never had a sexual climax before. What does it feel like? Good, obviously, or people wouldn't do it. All of the small things John's been doing makes him desperately curious to find out.
"I can't reach you," Sherlock tells John as he kisses at the side of his friend's head and ear. The sensation on his neck is a good one. It sends a warm kind of throb to his groin. That makes him seek more contact. More of the friction. Sherlock's hips roll toward John's and when he gets another electric taste, John will know it because Sherlock isn't at all quiet when he moans his appreciation. "My arm, John," Sherlock mumbles, his breathing starting to sound noticeably quicker. "I want be able to do more than just lie here."
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It's generally impossible to think when Sherlock normally puts him on the spot but this is something else entirely. He isn't trying to observe as Sherlock observes or rattle off facts from medical school that may or may not be useful in the current situation in an attempt to get a pat on the head from his friend. John pauses at the dip of neckline and runs his long nose up Sherlock's throat to his cheek. Just one more kiss for now, no less passionate, certainly enough to tide him over.
"Just lay back," he says, wondering if Sherlock, a man of action and of deep thought, can be contented with passivity. "Let me show you something for once."
John's by no means expert on things with men but he knows what he likes and Sherlock isn't his first male bedmate.
Clever fingers, skilled in so many things, pull at the drawstring of Sherlock's sleeping trousers before he slips his hand past the waistband and into the right leg.
He breathes in the gasp before tentatively nibbling on an ear. It might be too many new sensations at once but as long as Sherlock doesn't close down to sensory overload, it should be worthwhile.
He's a little surprised at Sherlock's girth now that he holds him in his hand and, swallowing excess saliva, tugs his hand upward.
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But, John's not being fair. He's getting so much data for how his own body works, but hardly anything from how John's does. A scientific mind likes reproducibility of results. Sherlock wants to give John every touch and sensation he's getting if for nothing else than to observe how similar their physical responses are.
"Laying back is worse than lying back," Sherlock grumbles. "Telling me to lay is telling me to be no more than an immobile object." As Sherlock gives his ill-timed grammar lesson, he has to pause every few syllables. Sometimes with a gasp, but usually just to mentally follow every little movement of John's fingertips over his skin. There's a little spot just over his hip that makes him gasp as John works his hand down into his pyjamas.
Distracted from his complaints, Sherlock curls his good arm around John and tucks his face down against his friend's shoulder. "John," he moans, once again squirming toward him. "You want my attention, too. Why don't you let me give it to you?"
I thought I replied ages ago! Blast!
Alas. That's not going to be possible. And he ought to have known.
Fingers still wrapped around the throbbing member of a man who likely has never even bothered to touch himself this particular way, John props himself up to look down at the poor creature yearning to do more than simply enjoy.
Likely, John realizes, Sherlock can't enjoy anything being passive like this.
"Can you allow me just to touch you? If you want to touch me after, you're more than welcome to. I want to... I just want you to watch me." That small realization, and admittance, makes his stomach burn. But it's true.
To have Sherlock's eyes on him--
"I'm going to take your trousers off...and light a candle so you can see better," he explains. "All right?"
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Sherlock lets John slip away from his embrace. His grip loosens, thinking that his friend might be moving like he'd asked him to. Into a position where Sherlock will be able to use his good arm to return some of these touches and find out things no one else knows about John's body.
"But," Sherlock starts as John begins his request. It goes uninterrupted, so he listens to what John has to say. It's difficult to think too much on speaking with John's hand stroking him.
"That's all... just watch?" Sherlock asks him, but he's uncertain. He wants to touch, too. There's so much vulnerability in succumbing to physical pleasure. Whether it's drugs or this, there's a certain amount of himself that he always keeps closed away and boxed deep down inside his Mind Palace in a locked room at the very bottom level. Showing John that makes him feel anxious. Doubly so if the pleasure will be going one way for now.
He trusts John implicitly.
A slow nod. It might be too dark to make it out. "All right. Fine. It's... it's fine," Sherlock tells him, rolling onto his back and kicking himself back so he can prop his neck up against his pillow against the headboard. "We'll do it your way this time."
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His former flatmate has spent thirty something years of his life without likely knowing what this is like and John is in the mood to treat him-- Not because he wants to necessarily, but because the process is going to be so different from the way he's been with anyone else.
Pantsless is a good look for Sherlock, John decides as he brings fire to the wick of the candle and drops beside his friend to run his fingers over his smooth chest to his navel. His mouth follows as John gets himself back into position on the bed.
A glance up tells him that yes, Sherlock is indeed watching him. Good. He plans on making this slow with his nose in Sherlock's pubic hair before he even brings his mouth into play. He can almost taste the groan when he does, though.
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Sherlock gets to once again prove that he has no body shame as John removes everything below the waist. He lifts his hips when he needs to in order to keep this going at a decent pace, but John seems to be more interested in teasing him than anything else.
"To be honest, John... I don't think I could get much more aroused than this," Sherlock tells his friend, reaching down with his good hand to touch the top of John's head. The hair's a bit shorter and a lot greyer than it had been when they'd lived with each other before. It feels coarse and wiry as all grey hair tends to feel, but he doesn't mind. What he does mind is being teased so much. As pleasant as it is, Sherlock's not known for his patience.
After so much teasing, it takes quite a lot of willpower not to try and impale John's throat as soon as his friend takes a taste of him. Their moans are similar, but Sherlock's is a much lower register that sounds almost like a growl. "More, John."
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It likely isn't fair to tease but John hadn't meant for it to seem like that. His interest is more selfish than it is selfless, his desire to see Sherlock undone outweighed by his need to savour and study. One never knows when the next day will end up being the last and should either of them fall tomorrow, John wants to know that he's had, and given, his best.
Then again, oral sex on men is not one of better talents. A few times here or there and plenty of fellatio on himself gives him more confidence than he ought to otherwise have. Luckily, Sherlock doesn't thrust upwards. There's no need to be induced to vomit!
John presses a hand to Sherlock's hip and with the other, provides the second half of Sherlock's length with stimulation his mouth will simply be unable to. He is eager at least in this act, though "good" isn't a word anyone knowing any better would use.
John gives in to direction. Sherlock wants more and John isn't going to drag it out any further. This is much faster than he'd assume they would go, but it feels right just the same.
He is trusting that Sherlock will warn him before orgasm, though. Perhaps they should have gone into this with a game plan?
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"A little... less suction," Sherlock instructs, licking his lips to wet them. He's been doing the majority of his breathing through his mouth so it's only natural the air current would leave his lips and throat feeling dry.
The toes of his left foot dig into the bedclothes next to John's side as he tries very hard not to thrust against his friend's mouth. He's being too careful, so Sherlock assumes John's one of those unlucky people born with a sensitive gag reflex. (Too many overdoses and the forced vomiting those brought have left Sherlock with a rather weak one.)
"Rhythm, John." Sherlock could sit back and enjoy himself without complaint, but if he can't touch John, then he can at least give him verbal pointers. "Move your hand and your mouth at the same tempo and direction."
Sherlock might have already had an accidental release before getting his trousers off if it weren't for the ache in his arm grounding him. And if John follows his advice, it most likely wouldn't be very long before orgasm finds him anyway.
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Sherlock doesn't need experience to know what he likes and John is more than happy to oblige. He ignores the salty, bitter flavour beading on his tongue, the small emission can't be helped though it does signal that Sherlock is closing in to completion.
Less suction. More coordination. John's brows furrow as he works up Sherlock's shaft, ignoring the discomfort in his cheek from the skin stretching at his stitches.
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There's a moment just a few minutes into the experience that feels different. A little tug like his body is getting ready for something. All those little nerve impulses start to resonate faster and it leaves Sherlock's head tucked down toward his chest. "Oh God, John," Sherlock moans, moving his hand down to cup at John's cheek because he knows that if he keeps his hand on the top of John's head, he'll just pull the other man's face downward.
He bends both legs up, left leg twisting around John's shoulder and the right thigh rubbing against the back of his knuckles at the side of John's head. Yes, he thinks he's getting pretty close now, but he doesn't tell John in any words.
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Hurray! Tags!
Taaaags! 8D
Screw work, I miss tagging yoooou.
;A; I miss tagging you, too. This is one of my fav. threads.
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